My heart is aching all because of KARYN WASHINGTON !!! You’ve been a friend of mine since middle school. We first met at Greater Grace Christian Academy. Andrea introduced us! We didn’t have any classes together in high school but we would usually catch the same bus home after school, laughing and acting a fool. At GGCA our beautiful brown faces were just two of the very few that would walk those halls.
I can’t recall ever seeing you without a smile on your face. Even when I’ve seen you upset (LOL) you still had a little smirk. Ha! I could never take you seriously when you tried to scold someone. I can’t remember if it was your little sister or cousin, but while we were walking home from school you fussed at them for something they had gotten in trouble for. But it was funny! I tried so hard not to let them see me snickering while you scolded them, but I just couldn’t help it! I’m like Karyn put some base in your voice! LOL Nonetheless, laughing with you will always be a great memory. It’s like all you had to do was to show up and show your teeth. Your smile was so big and your face was so beautiful! You were radiant and that would prompt infectious laughter. We’d laugh ourselves silly.
I remember I’d cover my mouth when i laughed. I had just gotten braces and I wasn’t quite comfortable yet. I was the epitome of an awkward little black girl. You told me I could be your brace face buddy. I think that was the first time if ever heard the term “brace face” !!! Lol & it certainly wasn’t the last either. We’d talk a lot about school and other silly stuff that probably didn’t matter much, but you gave me so much comfort. Now that I think about it, that amazes me. We were only in middle school and there you were inspiring me and teaching me to love my brown self in the most subtle ways. It is no surprise that you would go on to do such amazing things. May “For Brown Girls” (FBG) continue to thrive. That will forever be your brand, your movement, and your legacy! You’re amazing and even at such the young and tender age of 22 you’ve touched the lives of many all over the world. You inspire me and so many other people so much more than you could’ve ever imagined. I wish you could’ve seen the true magnitude of that.
When I look at you I see a reflection of myself and most certainly that is why this hurts so badly. From now on I’ll forever remember your big beautiful smile, your charm, ambition, professionalism, entrepreneurship, confidence, humility, your drive, and your beautiful Brown Skin. That is what I’ll choose to remember… because to be honest, I’m a bit angry with you. Indeed I’m being selfish, but my heart is devastated- yet, because I know a tad bit about what you were going through I can understand. I’m guilt tripping because I wish I could’ve been there for you a little bit more. I’m so sorry, but I can’t help but to think that with just a little bit more time or a little less distance, proximity would’ve allowed me to make, maybe the slightest difference…. Forgive me!
Your MOTHER raised you so well. She’s been proud of you and I know she’s happy to have you by her side now. I’m so blessed to have met you and I’m so grateful that there is a God so merciful and graceful enough to supply us with what we need just when we need it- And so like I told you the last time we shared words, I love you, you’ve been in my prayers, and God is with you even in your darkest hour- and I’m most certain that He was last night. I’m glad you have found peace and happiness. You deserve it. God bless you, your family, and friends. You are Loved and Missed my beautiful brown girl extraordinaire! Thank you for being kind. Thank you for sharing your dream. Thank you for your courage and all the love you’ve poured out of your soul. Now you’ll receive divine restoration- 10 fold! (tears)
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